I need a word, and I know for a fact that when I write, I get just that! So here I am. I am confused, but God is not the author of confusion (1 Cor 14:33) so in order for me to be confused, I must be outside of His will and leaning unto my own understanding and not trusting Him and acknowledging Him in ALL my ways (Prov 3:5-6). So now, what do I do?? Well, I must stand still and know that He is God (Ps 46:10).
God is not moved by our emotions, He does not work nor does He operate on our time. His ways are not our ways, His thoughts are not our thoughts (Is 55:8). God doesn’t care if we feel like its time for Him to answer, reveal, deliver and no, it’s not because He is a mean and evil God, but because He is God that is omniscient and knows all (1 John 3:20). Look at the story of Job. Job could have easily said, “Okay God, now come on. You done took all of my belongings, and then you take my kids. I mean really, don’t you think its time you go on ahead and give me back me??” But he didn’t. Each time I uncover the story of Job, I get more and more amazed and inspired.
So in my confusion, in the dilemmas that I face; I’m battling: How deep is my faith, how much do I trust God, when do and when will I know when enough is enough and I’ve done all that I can do and tried as hard as I can try?! And as I search for the answer, I’m reminded of Job, I’m reminded of the children of Israel, I’m reminded of Moses, of Abraham, of Joseph, of Jonah, of Jesus, of Ruth and honestly, of myself. What I know is that God won’t give us more that we can bare. What I know is there is a blessing in every storm. What I know is my trials are my test. What I know is the fights are not with flesh and blood but spiritual (Eph 6:12). What I know is in everything there is a lesson to learn. So as I seek for the answer, I know the answer. Now is not the time to give up, now is not the time to throw in the towel. There is ALWAYS sunshine after the storm and living in New Orleans, I KNOW everyday is not that perfect spring Sunday. So as I sit here writing this blog to speak life into my own life, I want to do the same for your life.
Whatever confusion and/or dilemmas you are facing; if you are struggling with trying to figure out if you’ve done all that you can do and you feel like there could be more…do the more. When Jesus hung on that cross for us, bruised and beaten, He didn’t give up the Ghost until there was nothing else for Him to do. He done all that He could do. He lived His life until there was no more life that He had to live in the flesh. We as Christians are to be Christ-like, so do what you need to do until there is no more before you go and give up and start throwing in the towel, because at the end of the day; in Christ we know that we are MORE than conquerors (Rom 8:37), above and not beneath, the head and not the tail, the lender and not the borrower (Deut 8:12-13) and as we think and reflect on the story of Job we know that our latter is blessed more than our former (Job 42:12).
Just this past Sunday, Pastor Hall spoke on the topic: “I am coming out of this” and he posed a question that I need to sit and ponder on that maybe you feeling the way I do should do the same. He asked: “Can you go through the pressure to get the blessing and are you willing to be a part of God’s plan?”
[Note::] You WILL have to go >through< something to get >to< something, but the choice is yours of how far you are willing to go.
I wanna go as far as I can, until I can’t go anymore. If I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me (Phil 4:13) and I rely on Him to be my refuge and my strength (Ps 62: 5-8), then there should be no giving up or giving in UNLESS it’s in the will of God because as long as I am Child of God, which will be until I die; I will ALWAY be on top. And now as I come to a close, I feel relieved, I’m smiling and I’m laughing because I got the revelation, confirmation, and clarification I needed and was seeking. This is the year of supernatural manifestation. This is the year where I will see the things I am praying for; so of course Satan is coming with it because He doesn’t want God to win…. But guess what!? We already got the victory!! Hallelujah!! (Oh, that’s gonna piss him off! Ha! Who cares!!?!)
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sister, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”
James 1:2-4, NIV
She is not in the lack.
Bless and Be blessed.